A is A

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 16:35:00 GMT

if you know me, you know i don't take stress well... any one want to lend me $400? i'll pay you back on october 1-10... haha i'm not too worried anymore, but yeah?

Tue, 09 May 2006 23:17:29 GMT

i'm listening to jimmey eat world

and i'm going to be all sad and stuff

nah. but anyway, i've read some books, i read a philip k dick called "confessions of a crap artist"

and it was very good. my good god, yes.

i'm trying to simultaneously read Ayn's "The Romantic Manifesto," Hugo's "Les Miserable," Dostoeyevsky's "The Idiot," and Kafka's "The Castle." It's an interesting challenge. i got off work early today. i've been writing songs like a fucking, like, like a fucking songwriting demon.

examples follow.

THE WHITE TORCH

bleeding phosphorous
onto the pavenebt
your skin is cracking
between your fingertips
burning brightly down
in a blaze of glory

vacate vacate the system
restless in your alibis

a white torch flares
in a carriage-drawn vacuum
rays of reflected light
bouncing off your face
passing the buck
the torch stops here

vacate vacate the system
restess in your alibis

THE SACRIFICE

the sun splits two ways
into a right-hand bedroom
this hole inside me
has been filled with anger
i seek to grind somebodie's face
into the ground i've belonged to
all the fake fucking platitudes
that have raked my heart through
make the shell outside me
start to sag so i can shine to
rape
the martyr makes a sacrifice to
rape
in a run down lean-to

the martyr makes his sacrifice
his life for the love of a trophy wife
and alchohol and alchohol and alchohol
and alchohol and alchohol and alchohol
and rage and anger
against everything beautiful that he can see to
rape
the murderers sacrifice to
rape
in a run down lean-to

breaking out, breaking up, breaking down,
but never broken in

the goddess inside of you
the martyr inside of me
combine in explosive force
to rekindle our beauty

BLOWHARD(this song's old lyric wise, but new music wise)

candles and air pressure
candles burning friendly in the daytime
freezing to my face
it knows; i took a step back
and my feet, my feet tripped forward a little
blow

it was too late, the flames creep down
down my arms, up my legs
between my pubic bone caves
blow

throwing flaming matchsticks
like spears to the ground
and a perfect girl, with brown hair
was walking slow slow slow motion
i froze
and she smiled
blow

it was too late, the flames creep down
down my arms, up my legs
between my pubic bone caves
blow

one day she said: "you were never as warm
to me as that day so long long long ago"
and then she rotated towards me
"i was frozen,
burning in the cold. you thawed my heat.
you knew the trick, you!.. blow hard."

Tue, 02 May 2006 23:25:08 GMT

glory at the end of the week, with hippies vs. bums on the streets, and gangs vs. gangs at the other end of the street. a night in debauch and of music. a day of orbsnotorbs, and theresnothingicandoit'satotaleclipseoftheheart's. and not the zoo. a new song, adesperate feverish mind, an aching for forward motion. new yet not new, changed yet not changed. and prince.

bored... as... fuck

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 01:46:21 GMT

it seems like my life is getting more and more boring. i'm watching enterprise, for chrissakes.

fuckin hell, i wish i had a life.

SO I AM HAVING A MOVE IN/MOVE OUT PARTY ON SATURDAY, APRIL 1ST, YOU BETTER GO, MOTHERFUCKERS.

DETAILS LIE BEHIND THIS PHONE NUMBER: 503-236-8136.

fuck me sideways

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 03:06:58 GMT

but geoff is posting on GASP! livejournal. i'm not very good at expelling my thoughts, it's true. i just finished '93 by Victor Hugo, and it was FARKCING AWESOME. also party friday the 13th, and rave plus drugs saturday the 14th and i am going to try to get stoned in a moment here, that may not work, but i'm doin alllllright so far. i don't hate my job at all, it gives me an excuse to read up on philosophy, i.e. who to reject, who to grab aspects of and leave the rest, and the perfect(ayn rand, haha). so yeah, i'm pretty good. i should look for a girl that i respect, and that i could be with.

some quotes that help me remember that the world is rational

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 10:20:56 GMT

"did you really think we want those laws observed?" said Dr. Ferris. "We want them to be broken. You'd better get it straight that it's not a bunch of boy scouts you're up against... We're after power and we mean it... There's no way to rule innocent men. The only power any government has is the power to crack down on criminals. Well, when there aren't enough criminals one makes them. One declares so many things to be a crime that it becomes impossible for men to live without breaking laws. Who wants a nation of law-abiding citizens? What's there in that for anyone? But just pass the kind of laws that can neither be observed nor enforced or objectively interpreted – and you create a nation of law-breakers – and then you cash in on guilt. Now that's the system, Mr. Reardon, that's the game, and once you understand it, you'll be much easier to deal with."

Ayn Rand "Atlas Shrugged" 1957

"The spread of evil is the symptom of a vacuum. Whenever evil wins, it is only by default: by the moral failure of those who evade the fact that there can be no compromise on basic principles."

Ayn Rand "Capitalism: The Unknown Ideal" 1966

"The [U.S.] Constitution is a limitation on the government, not on private individuals ... it does not prescribe the conduct of private individuals, only the conduct of the government ... it is not a charter for government power, but a charter of the citizen's protection against the government."

Ayn Rand "The Objectivist Letters"

"Manufacturing and commercial monopolies owe their origin not to a tendency imminent in a capitalist economy but to governmental interventionist policy directed against free trade and laissez faire."

Ludwig Von Mises

"If some peoples pretend that history or geography gives them the right to subjugate other races, nations, or peoples, there can be no peace."

Ludwig Von Mises

"Economically considered, war and revolution are always bad business."

Ludwig Von Mises

fuck

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 21:15:46 GMT

so i just got laid off again.

shit

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 19:46:05 GMT

IT'S MY MOTHERFUCKING BIRTHDAY BITCHES!!

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 04:27:27 GMT

i'm writing a story and when i'm done i can email it to you if you ask, so ask me, and give me your email.

in other news, nothing's really going on, my list of firsts is now down to 7 from 12(in less than 2 months!). remember i'll keep an update on that one. if you really want to know what they are, i'll tell you, but i just don't think it warrants public posting. so yeah, that's me in the last couple whatever.

THIS ONE'S OLD, but it's one of my favorites.

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 05:17:05 GMT

the end

in the orchard we saw
shines like the morning light
when evening is setting in
what was good in life
and the green hatred that festers
is robbing this air of it's life
i live down here
down in this room i chain myself
to fear, or the wall, or both
breathing in my jealousy
it's piped in like disney muzak
inhale and taste life
life in a dark room
where you can't see out
i still manage to offend those walking outside
in this orchard i saw a star burn through the earth
waving as it went
ready to slumber til another day
days are sequential, an annoyance for sure
so that today happens, and sure enough
tomorrow happens right after
but i don't want it to
i want that star to hang
then i can bask in this air
this perfect air for living
and not wishing to burn with that star
until it's dark in here too.
three faces plus mine
we could live and die in one sunset
i wouldn't even care

deadly boredom

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 02:21:17 GMT

GOD,

i'm so bored i might stab my self just so i'll have to get the stab wound fixed up.

okay probably not.

anyway, i'm bored, INSTANT MESSAGE ME, an empty apology

or email me, six.seis.roku@gmail.com

or mail me a phone, and then call me.
or send me a letter bomb, thaT would be a break from monotony

ah crap, just shoot me now.

blag

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 04:24:18 GMT

i had a really good weekend.

but now i feel like shit. it's been a really long time since i've felt this fucking emotional. it sucks. what really helps is that it's valentine's day #21 spent alone.

enough bitching, i don't post enough for this type of thing.

i rule everthing/

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 08:06:56 GMT

. so there .

courtesy of cheryl

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 02:51:37 GMT

You can ask me 6 questions.
Any six no matter how personal, private or random.
I have to answer them honestly.
In turn you have to post this message in your own journal and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you.
So go ahead and ask me any 6 questions.

Mon, 10 May 2004 16:23:30 GMT

list of people i like:
+my roommates(off and on, hah)
+becca stone
+amy shepard
+solame kids
+ariel
+emiliano
+brian
+josh robertson
+jed

maybe more if i can think of them, but everyone else is dumb, and or has turned into a lamoid(hipsters, scenesters, not talk to me-ers)

aren't you all so glad i posted this here?

haha

Sat, 10 Jan 2004 07:55:57 GMT

you all suck because you haven't called me. so there.

503-233-7129

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 23:55:52 GMT

hey.

call me at my house. 1-503-233-7129.

see ya.

Wed, 26 Nov 2003 06:08:27 GMT

Post anything that you want (in comments), and post it anonymously. Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love -- anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

Sun, 23 Nov 2003 22:26:13 GMT

so does anyone need a roommate in potland, or know someone who does?

Mon, 10 Nov 2003 20:09:21 GMT

Independence is the only gauge of human virtue and value. What a man is and makes of himself; not what he has or hasn't done for others. There is no substitute for personal dignity.

Wed, 27 Aug 2003 23:14:46 GMT

NEVERLAND

Wed, 27 Aug 2003 23:13:20 GMT

TOTALLY

Wed, 27 Aug 2003 23:12:59 GMT

YOU LOSE

Wed, 27 Aug 2003 23:12:21 GMT

I WIN

Wed, 27 Aug 2003 23:12:01 GMT

TERRIBLE